Life is a challenge.  It’s full of unexpected twists and turns than a Tarantino movie.  Sometimes it’s impossible to know which way to turn next for all the options ahead of you look equally daunting and the fear of the repercussions having made an unwise decision in the past (so you know the pain of doing so), is overwhelming.

That’s how I’ve been feeling for a little while now and it sucks big time.  In some ways I feel like I’m having somewhat of a “mid-life crisis” but I’m hoping I don’t have only 30 years left.  But you don’t want to know the details of my dilemmas – what you do want to know is what I baked to remedy it.  Life is better with chocolate muffins…

When my bestest friend in the world said a good ol’ catch up was overdue and would I like to come over for pasta my answer was “yes please – I’ll bring the chocolate!”.  It’s been a couple of weeks so we were desperate for a “moan/giggle” session and what we need to fuel it turned out to be tomato bruschetta, vegetable pasta bake, two bottles of delicious red wine and these little babies:

These crenulated beauties are a labour of love – you will need to make a chocolate custard to start with which forms the base of the batter.  The price you pay for delivering the most luscious, dark, moist, not too sweet and perfect with vanilla ice cream, is needing to get out a pot and probably two or three more bowls, depending on how you like to prep up your baking. 

20 short minutes later and the smell of baking chocolate will wrap you up, soothe away the stresses of the day (*life*) and only be bettered by the taste of a freshly baked, still warm from the oven, magical muffin…

Check out the Grand Canyon chocolate cravasse in this bad boy - makes me wanna take up rock climbing ;)

You can just imagine a scoop of good quality vanilla ice cream melting like a snow-capped mountain range can’t you?  *Note to self – get on one’s bike, cycle to Delifonseca, buy Cheshire Farm vanilla ice cream, peddle home quick, warm a muffin up and relive some of last night’s chocolatey soul salvation!*

Now, this morning, my world is literally full of sunshine, streaming through my spare room window, warming my shoulders but also, I feel lighter, metaphorically speaking.  Of course not in the calorie sense of the word lighter lol!  But an evening of good food, wine and an even better girlfriend with some mutual soul purging has left me feeling hopeful that I can find the thing that is missing from my life and move forward. 

Moo, thank you for listening when I know you too have your own mountains to climb – I love you lots.  Here’s to a life filled with laughter, love and most importantly, these chocolate custard muffins 🙂